THE 1975

Matty and George progressively wore less clothes from this point onwards

Got the stage photos off Heather's Tumblr, there's more over there and on her instagram if you want to check them out.

So this was one of the best nights of my life, granted it was hot and hell, the most I've ever sweated at a gig and people were fainting all around me - which did leave me worried and asking "Are you okay" to everyone around me like after every song. Nevertheless it was still fucking amazing.
I painted my own band tee, because the last time I did that for fall out boy it just made the whole experience so much more memorable.

Matty came out and said "your country does terrible things to my hair" and I was like "YESSS I KNOOOWWW, JA FEEL",  seriously though, I don't remember the last time I coped with letting my hair down in Singapore - it just gets more and more fizzy in the humidity and it is like a scarf here, I can't deal with that.





They played:

 I was so happy that they played Milk because it's such a fun song to jam out to, and So Far (It's Alright) was exactly what I needed because that song just makes you feel better no matter what. I was basically screaming out every song (and trying really hard to dance with all the people in the way).  Head.Cars.Bending. (enough said) Heart Out was freaking magnificent with John on the sax, literally nothing beats a live saxophone.


There was a minor issue when everyone shoved forward and our area just like domino-ed over each other, and I ended falling on Clara, but we were okay and Heather helped me up before I got trampled (there was literally no space to push yourself up, it was just bodies against bodies and you are probably had as much foreign sweat on you as you had your own sweat) Matty started giving water out (my video on instagram of Talk! shows that), and refused to play until people got hydrated and water was in being given to the audience because he is a sweetheart. The security guards started giving water out and I shared water with about the 20 other people around me so yeah...that happened but oh well, it's so much better than passing out.

Matty got everyone to put their phones away, and they started Me, and dear lord I was just completely taken away because that song just makes me feel so many things and it says so many things without saying much at all. Basically "I was thinkin' 'bout killing myself, don't you mind? Don't you mind?" and the very subtle "I love you, don't you mind? Don't you mind".... and they flawlessly followed that up with fallingforyou which is a beautiful fucking song and actually kind of gives me mixed feelings but how can you not stand there at just feel it all over you, and be completely there in that moment, utterly taken by it? Ross and Matty did fabulous harmonies, and mannn Adam is amazing on the guitar.

Energy levels were up again at You, (I just really love all their songs) and at "Do you wanna dance" I I just completely let loose. The beat in Menswear just makes it utterly impossible to not get stuck on it. Girls was incredibly fun to sing along to, more than you could imagine.

Robbers was just amazing like the entire performance plus the audience involvement, like everyone around you was as in to it as you were and you were there in this crowd of people all screaming "NOW EVERYBODY'S DEAD!!!!" Chocolate was perfect as always, //T H A T'S  W H A T  S H E  S A I D// Matty was just leaving gaps for the audience to fill and making the cutest little movements and faces. and the whole crowd was cheering for SEX before the encore, and they closed with SEX and George did this epic drum solo where he continued to make more epic drum faces, as he did throughout the show.

I wish that night lasted forever, I was completely unaware of the pain in my foot till after, and I forgot I had been sick before and when the music was playing or Matty was talking everything was freaking ace and like was perfect.

I literally cannot wait till their next album because I more than liked every song on this one! In an interview Matty said the wanted to release it exactly 2 years from the first one, which means September 2nd 2015. (That will be a great early birthday present)

I am a dark cloud of a person, 
but I'll try not to rain until you get inside

[written 16th March 2014]

I douse my fires
with water or gasoline
they extinguish or
burn too high.

[Written 28 April 2014]

Who?

I am constantly running around from place to place, mostly inside my head and I can't settle down; I leave everything unfinished and I have nothing to show for all the hours I spend flitting from this to that only doing a little each time. Everything is partial. I'm sometimes at highs where I'm buzzing and full of things to say and do, but most of the time I feel like I'm in a hanging knot in a canopy, unable to free myself. I don't know who I am all the time, I can't speak in one way, I can't think in one way, I can't act in one way and I can't constantly be the same person. I have such a diffused identity, I might as well not exist.

True Procrastination

I don't actually know what I am doing or why, I am actually wearing sunglasses right now and have no recollection of putting them on, but I feel everything will be too bright if I took them off, it is 10:30p.m. 

I spent the weekend doing nothing school related. I technically did not get out of bed until 6pm on Saturday (while I got out to eat then went straight back), I was just in bed watching all of True Detective. True Detective is phenomenal, is it like a whole new level of television, this is the bridge between cinematic excellence and television gold. I am not kidding. The cinematography is exceptional,

and the acting in OSCAR WORTHY, if you want me to prove it just watch it, the 6 minute tracking shot at the end of episode 4 will probably seal the deal completely if nothing else does. I mean do you understand how hard it is to do that in a single take? Especially on a TV shooting schedule, in a real housing estate (it wasn't in a studio!).  I am terribly excited for tomorrow's episode! I also have a slight feeling of accomplishment because I wrote a mini review on it's cinematography (to validate my not doing work) on my IB film blog and other people actually reblogged it. I hope they actually read what I wrote and didn't just like the photoset (it wasn't a great photoset).

Well I hope my life is sort of amusing for you...I got cut by a takeaway box, I was betrayed by the food I wished to consume, my only comfort is that you will get a laugh at the pathetic-ness of this situation.

Am I sounding a little different today? I think it's because I've had too much sugar and tea, my attention span is extremely short today.

The problem with growing up is that there is not gradual way. You are held back and shoved forward at the same time and there is nothing to hold on to as you pinball around.

Fuck being treated like a child and having no say in things you care about, then being asked to decide on a career that you're going to stick to for the rest of your life. You won't even let me have a say in where I live, or what mode of transportation I take. Fuck having to ask permission to go to the bathroom then asking me to be mature and adult like in all situations.  Fuck you never listening to my opinions on things that matter then only asking me shit like where we should go for dinner. Fuck only being treated 'your age' when it is convenient. Fuck always feeling like you owe everyone something because you need to be taken care of.

I can't plan a future if I don't even want to be here today, and I can't ever want kids if all they have to look forward to is me fucking them up and society adding on more to that.

fizzle and burn

Well at least I did my homework before doing this.

I don't really think half the things I do through, e.g. I spent half an hour setting things on fire in the bathroom and putting them in a wet mug to fizzle out. Now my hair smells like smoke and so does the bathroom. Today went pretty slowly though.

I was thinking about the times where the world just goes too fast for you. Like you're barely moving and everyone's moving on. People talk but you can't understand, you try but everything is muffled and you don't catch words, just sounds. Everything is just lights and sounds. You just want everything to slow down, to stop completely even, just so you can get back in. So you can spin the same speed. Then there comes those times everything is moving painfully slowly, not because their boring or embarrassing. Just because. It feels like you're lunging forward, but nothing's moving with you and you're trapped. The nervousness builds and the anxiety follows but you can't explain why, and you're heart beats faster while everyone else's doesn't. Your head races too, and sometimes there's even a buzzing in your ear,you try to slow down and catch words, movements, anything, but you always miss, because you're reaching too early. It's either one or the other most of the time for me. All I am is this lone being, detached from a universe where everything is connected. It's hard to illustrate these feelings, this feeling of isolation even, with full knowledge that there are people that feel the same or at least similar.

The world is spinning too slow now, and I am lunging forward at nothing.