Everything is overwhelming and everything seems impossible. If I come out of this, I'm only going to be worse than I ever was.

Sometimes I want to talk to someone about how I used to be the kid who was proud to have 100% or 99% attendance rate and I almost never fell ill, and then the dark came into my head and diffused into my body, and now all I ever get close to is 80% and I want less, I want as little as I can get; I feel sick all the time.

But, there isn't much to mention other than this sickness is as real as any other and it isn't just limited to your mind and it seeps into everything else.