Realising you have mental illness puts a lot of things into perspective. Like, how not everyone thinks about killing themselves when they can't find their homework, or lose their wallet, or leave their coat in school. Like how it isn't normal to feel like you want to rip all of your skin off when you notice another thing you don't like about it. I hadn't realised all of that wasn't normal, because that was all I remembered feeling and I thought everyone must have felt the same.