feel

Why do we have to know what we're doing all the time? Or at least look like we do. I don't know what I'm doing and I never have. I think I can say I love the way I am but I am only lying -I want to rip off my skin and start fresh without these scars with new flesh. I don't want to feel this stubble or be clumsy and stumble (all the time, all the time). I don't want to choke on my words or have what others' say feel like swords. I don't want to be weak or feel like I've sprung a leak (all the time, all the time). I don't want to be who I am, I don't want to give a fucking damn (all the time, all the time).