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fatfatfatfatfatfatfatfat

2011-08-03T01:23:00.001+08:00

I'm am unbelievably fat now. UNBELIEVABLY. I need to loose at least 10 kilos. 10!

it feels like it's just me

OH HI AGAIN.

2011-07-27T00:30:00.002+08:00

So, now I live in Shanghai. Yup long story there, cause I haven't been here in an entire year and more, a lot has a happened.

I came here cause there's almost nowhere to go, really, even tumblr, cause everyone is on it now. Really, it's ridiculous, how did so many people find me?

About me living in shanghai, I absolutely hate it here. Not the country, I think, ok maybe a little, but it's cause I dread every aspect of moving. My parents have been the most insensitive to me, they asked my brother so many times, how he felt about moving to our grandparents, cause there really is no point bringing him over, cause he has poly to finish then NS. They never once asked me, they waited till people asked me, people I don't even want to talk to. Am I supposed to say anything other than "oh, it's ok" then nod my head. Am I supposed to tell the truth to those people? What The Fuck, I'M THE ONE THAT'S MOVING WITH YOU, when the hell does my opinion come in. No, no one asked me, they just told me.

It's completely stupid, living here, that is. First of all, there is no TWITTER, YOUTUBE, FACEBOOK, and a ton of other sites. Oh and I'm pretty sure I have depression, cause I have insomnia sometimes, then early morning wakefulness or whatever it's called. Oh and the I-hate-my-life-I-hate-everyone-I-see always comes into play. I don't want to go out, I don't want to talk to people, I can't concentrate on anything. You what's the best of it all, I imagine every possible way I could die, like when I'm in the car, "boom" car crash, it's very vivid, very, very,vivid. I look up at the ceiling to see where I could possibly tie a noose. I wonder how long it would take for me to go cold. I wonder if I could smother myself, if I could hold on long enough for that. I wonder a lot of things, sometimes I wish we had I gun somewhere, that would end fast. That's suicidal isn't it?

My parents are the most inconsiderate people, I mean I had friends, friends I've been with for 8 years. Friends I spent almost everyday of the past 2 years with. You know what they said, "you can find knew friends" I mean, I've lived with you guys and all, haven't you noticed I am the most socially awkward person in the family, I'm even awkward with my friends, the fuck do you want me to do? I can't even start a freaking conversation. Aside from that, I had goals. I was actually working hard, the hardest I'd ever tried for something. Why did they think I went for training every time, why else would I stay, no matter how many times I got scolded, no matter how many times I felt like utter shit (well thanks dad, now I feel like utter shit everyday and I don't even have to be scolded, nothing has to be done, I wake up feeling like that) , that I wasn't improving, that I should just leave cause I was useless to the team. I stayed because I wanted to play, to play and to win, you know, how bad I want to play with my team, how bad I wanted to make it into the B 'div and play in the competition. I think I made it, you know, but I'll never play now, not with them again. My parents think it's just the games I want to play the sport, but it's the people too, I don't want to play with some other team, it is not the same.

Oh, and my dad, he is just freaking top class, really. I mean I've never seen an older child. Nice one dad, you're a fifty-something giving mom and me the finger secretly behind your back, did you think no one would see? Nice one dad, I've never seen any other child get angry when they dropped a pen on the floor. Nice one dad, blaming everything on it being FRIDAY. Nice one dad, I thought you'd be happier here, but you get angry more often here. Nice one dad, for making me feel more like shit by getting angry like everyday like every hour or more. WHY DON'T YOU JUST HIT ME OR SOMETHING, AT LEAST I'LL HAVE A LEGITIMATE REASON TO FEEL LIKE SHIT ABOUT MY LIFE.

well this isn't all but I don't think I should type anymore.

it really feels like it's just me

moved!

2010-07-02T19:06:00.001+08:00

I've moved

http://minimalistic-existence.tumblr.com/

cause I'm to lazy for blogger and tumblr is simpler :)
I may post here sometimes, continue tagging (:
see you there...

it isn't just me

epik high

2010-06-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

The umbrella was too small for the both of us
but the umbrella shielded us from the cold world
Now it seems much to big and awkward.
Your left shoulder always got so wet
I hang my head with the weight of the memories
My shoelaces are untied, undone
and all thats next to me is the rain and wind
(not there) is a person that will hold my umbrella for a while

they make even the smallest so meaningful

With a cup of black coffee and the book I always read.
I flip through the book page by page thoughtlessly, with my eyes closed.

To kill some time, I have abandoned myself.
The coffee that I drink everyday,
Is bitter today and I miss the sweetness from yesterday.

epic high's lyrics are poetry

it isn't just me

training

2010-06-14T23:43:00.005+08:00

this morning wad bad
but after that it was hella funny, and crazy, etc as per usual when I'm with my friends
they are the people that make me feel its ok for me not to get the water break during training
cause they'll be the ones getting it.
its ok it I get marked cause, they won't be getting marked.

I seriously have to complete my homework
I still have plenty
oh, damn, I just wish the school actually considered holidays, simply as holidays, no homework
no extra lesson, and whatnot
oh holidays, there are so many places I wanna go
USA
korea (I wanna eat the street food, and maybe go to some music programmes)
japan(cherry blossoms!)
EUROPE(who doesn't wanna go there)
england too...
what world cup matches today are interesting?

today we fought over those poofy stickers I loved (and still do) when I was young.
talk about connecting with your inner child...

to my real friends
I love you guys
我爱你(wo ai ni)
사랑합(saranghae!)

te quiero

ok that was a little over the top (and now I'm thinking of my ear candy)
but you get the drift...

on another note, this MV is so sad/touching (plus jinwoon! ><)

it isn't just me

2010-06-09T22:29:00.002+08:00

This morning sucked
I shan't go into further details cause I shall be looking up my secret smile list
its all because I didn't think happy thoughts this morning
spoilt my day
anyways, at least I got something new to add to my S.Smiles list
jasmine's sorry sorry dance (its hilarious, seriously, the expression plus the spastic movements!)

I was spent went I got home, and so I slept, for more than 2 hours
tomorrow I shall recuperate
and try to comeback stronger and better
cause no matter how he fcking shows his favouritism, I won't be bothered, not anymore...

I'll do well, cause I believe.

it isn't just me

2010-06-04T21:35:00.003+08:00

I miss eng yu zhen :( . and I have wanted to go to europe since I knew my whole family stayed there before I was born...

Bam! I'm sick again, this is the 2nd time this week...=.=
missed training today.missed after training study group :(

still had fun @ bernice's yesterday
it was EPIC!
zoom zoom zoom
pair of perverts.lol
Brands left early
and then there 5
Ricia,Marvin,Bernice,Heather and me
In the end we barely did any homework

but we had fun!

watched a little of dorian grey on marvin's Iphone
stupid person dun wanna believe [one com to one Iphone]
so his attempt at sync-ing was a failure

after that went to tiong
and ate a long johns, then went home

this morning,
I woke up with the flu...=.=

shall read the secret soon
so I can become a better person

it isn't just me

Six Billion Secrets - FMS #22176

2010-05-31T23:45:00.000+08:00

Six Billion Secrets - FMS #22176

this is sad...

2010-05-29T21:30:00.004+08:00

the holidays are here...
oh it is so exciting....
you think?
I have like a pile of homework
then trainings
plus my ankle, its just screwed up
I'm not going anywhere
I'm just here the whole month

I actually wanna go somewhere this month
cause for a while I wanna forget about everything
in a foreign place, seeing new things
but I can't do that this time

gosh, I think my life is miserable....=.=

watching cinderella's sister ep 18 now, have to watch part 2 with Chi subs cause the eng subbed one won't work..=.=
sigh, its in traditional chinese...=.=
I still have to watch it, ep 17's jungwoo's birthday part plus the learning "bo peep bo peep" dance part was damn funny
but most of the other parts were sad..T.T
I still haven't cried yet...

random : Out of all the 2PM songs Taec thinks ‘I hate you’ is the best
SAME HERE xp
it isn't just me

2010-05-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

could I have someone to talk to right now
I think I'm sinking
say something to me
something that you actually mean,I tired of the fake shit!
maybe everyone doesn't like me now
not a single person I want to talk to knows this, Right?
but I hope they'll say something
I wish it'd happen sooner
hope it'll happen before
I can't take it anymore
can you please listen cause
soon I think I may give up

oh nevermind....
I think I can just shut up now, its the holidays
(now I'm more alone then ever...)

2010-05-22T22:09:00.003+08:00

I'm posting now cause I'm totally bored out of my wits, and I don't feel like watching any dramas or doing anything at all, as matter of fact.

now school is just a drag, nothing exciting happens, I wished the holidays just came....
there's no netball camp (cause coach doesn't want one..=.=)
and no carnivals (so what is there to look forward to)
I'm not going overseas either
this is and has been the worst year of my life FML
everything is just so boring or annoying, (esp. when the sight of someone's face now pisses me off, but I shall not think of that)

can I just fast forward to something meaningful, and fufilling in my life
cause nothing means anything right now....

on another note, I am now on cinderella's sister episode 16!
It ia awesome, cause its different and interesting,
and you tend to focus more on the sisters than the guys. (but there is still dork taecyeon!)
there are alot of sad parts T.T, but I haven't cried yet, almost cried at ep 13
cause of taecyeon's face....it was like so pain ridden

it isn't just me

mid year resolutions

2010-05-21T21:00:00.002+08:00

these are the things I'll try to stick to for the rest of the year

1.Exercising more often
2.less junkfood
3.spending less money
4.STUDYING HARDER
5.being a better person (less bitchy times, more nice understanding times, less short temper)
6. not bothering about irrelevant people and what they think

and some other stuff...

we are all slaves to our bad habits

so we better find ways to change them.

the bloody b**** shall piss me off no more

it isn't just me

2010-05-08T19:15:00.005+08:00

Happy 14th ENG YU ZHEN

its very hard to find an unglam , picture of only you.
so I used this....
anyways appreaciate is ok....
plus pay me back my money leh... then we can go choose your retarded present
dunno how many of those things u want

continue to scold people when they don't even know
and continue to act they way you are
cause I love you just the way you are...retard...

we've already known each other for like...hmmm....8 years
BFFs hahas...
quite cheesy leh..aish!

cat...

Taecyeon :
Favorite animal?
I like dogs... I don't like arrogant cats!!

and all he draws are cats....

it isn't just me

2010-05-07T22:29:00.004+08:00

Today:
was our last day with Ms Lim
and the 1st day we kinda officially started to train the sec 1 s

Today we made Ms Lim extra irritated, and kept bluffing her : that we didn't do anything for her, and we also compared her sweets to miss neo's gifts last year, so she felt kinda paiseh I think...
then when we gave her the card (handmade courtesy of Clara) she got teary, aww~~
Our class is always like that we always don't like the trainee teachers at first, but then it always ends up with them laughing with us :D

she was teary and laughing at the same time, reading our retarded messages e.g : wear bikini to school (zhou mu hua, of course) and jian hui's "how to jio mr seah..." , when she already has a boyfriend...

oh and leon's SRPs and compos = most retarded things you've read in your life
"She was a professional, or so she told herself. she was a prostitute"
karaoke toilets, you can experience singing in the shower without having to go to Kbox
it has all the expensive brands like Armani, LV, Gucci and Hang Ten (WTH!)

did spot check on the sec 1 s today, but we forgot to check for something
*bam bam bam* they'll be in trouble next time, i think tt was the thing that led to our 200 push ups last year

p.s. I am posting now because SOMEONE is very bored...

it isn't just me

2010-05-05T19:24:00.002+08:00

haven't
posted in a few days
anyway...went to ECP with yz, heather, frida, bernice, jasmine, fangching, joey and greenview netballers..
As usual we made a mess out of a lot of stuff, like burger king being scattered with fries, or falling all over the pavement...[stray,sway and splat!]
had fun being retarded and other stuff

today we went to the old folks home for CIP, from what I heard being in the rehab centre is better than visiting the wards....
leon danced like a...I can describe it, but it was hilarious!!!
played blackjack with the elderly, tricked leon and houjoo the bankers, they are really oblivious!!!
had dejavu,some scene in my dream,from months! ago, occurred...
really, after is occurred, I was stunned for a while, cause I said the exact same thing and andrea said the exact same thing plus I was looking at the exact same scene, same colour plastic bags, same colour table and same colour felt roses...

this isn't the 1st time I had dejavu, I could have one every year...it seems almost that often...

it isn't just me

2010-05-02T00:12:00.003+08:00

post number 333!! hehe...
happy 19th birthday JINWOON! (정진운)
hilarious,overly jealous 2AM maknae.

anw went out for a movie yesterday, cause it was a half day..
jasmine went retarded again, so i went retarded with her, poor maniquenes....

ahhh well i'm sleepy... wathing the "last" ep of hello baby, but there will be an ep 13 with all the highlights of the season, highlight eps are the best, they have the funniest parts

it isn't just me

2010-04-29T22:37:00.004+08:00

Someone needs to chill out...
Mr Liu is a little touchy.... obviously people from 210 will do things like this with a light heart.
Eric shouldn't be too affected right?

anyways today's match lesson was seriously tense, it was dead silent, and if any of our lessons are dead silent there is definitely something wrong.
then Mr Liu just went to the questions super fast, almost none of us could keep up
then he gave homework, and JUST LEFT THE CLASS...=.=
then DJ did the same thing aft ACC, except without the homework...=.=
(Marvin is this -.- cause he has small eyes then he said I am this =.= lols)

been feeling kinda the unexplained sian and left out feeling...
Clara kinda knows right....
still have that feeling that many people suddenly think I'm annoying and don't really wanna talk to me...Why!?(if you do know why please care to explain)
have a feeling I don't fit anywhere anymore
I think I'm deranged....(or maybe everything I'm thinking is true)

我是中国人
你是中国人
我们都是中国人(great minds think alike!)

it isn't just me

2010-04-26T21:41:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 강 대성!!

He is friggin awesome!
*dual tone voice

the super retarded, hilarious, cute and talented idol is finally 21!

BIG BANG FTW!
DOREMON jjang!

I still think my life sucks, FML cause I feel everyone doesn't want me
it isn't just me

2010-04-25T01:33:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY Jay Park!

used his favourite colour (hot pink) in the pic (Pink Grandpa, I wanna see wild bunny episode 8 a lot)
I miss the retarded things he did in variety shows
and his lead(ja)ership

will see him in hype nation and his other collabs
AOM ftw, jay's B-boying is awesome!

it isn't just me

2010-04-22T18:03:00.003+08:00

a heavy heart...
that's all I wake up with now.
I can't exactly explain why but its just the way it is.

I miss thoose days now.
cause this is one of the days I hate myself

it isn't just me

2010-04-20T19:10:00.004+08:00

run till you can touch the sky with your hands
하늘에 손이 닿을 때 까지 달려가.
run till your heart us filled with your dreams
가슴에 꿈이 찰 때까지 달려가

-run
epik high

no wonder tablo's got a masters degree in eng literature

Keep on goin and taste the stars
Keep on growin and raise the bar
You're livin life for the A's down to the Z's
After the hill you gotta mountain to seize

it isn't just me

one last time

2010-04-16T22:48:00.004+08:00

we finally won and we won by fifteen, six more points than the total we lost to them.
they did it without my help,(maybe I'm the jinx)
and they did it awesome
everyone fought, really fought they didn't give up or anything near then end.
see we could've gotten champs in the zonals if played like this, or maybe entered nationals top 4.
well that's the past, at least we know we have it in ourselves

I'm gonna miss the past 4 months,
we've worked hard together,
fought hard
fell hard
we got through just fine, we even made history

1st nan hua netball 'c' division team to get into top 2 finals in zonals
1st nan hua netball 'c' division team to enter the nationals top 8

so there is something we can be proud off, out off all the rubbish we pulled on court.

almost cried when I still couldn't play for our final match
i don't think they knew, but when they were warming up I kinda was holding back tears.

Mr quek, Mdm tan and coach treated us to ice cream sundaes(thank you!!)
surprise!
so touched
so sweet yet so sad.
where does the time go, our "c" division days are over now.

now its time to look forward

it isn't just me

artists?

2010-04-13T18:42:00.001+08:00

for my art group : save and edit in photoshop, delete the acess and dupilcate, print at least 6 after adding in your name.

it isn't just me

2010-04-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

honestly today's game was screwed up,
and it wasn't just one person

so this wednesday, this wednesday we'll have to fight ok
I think I probably can't play
but so what, we're good enought right
so we can can't we
all we need is our mindsets to be right
don't give up
never give up
its all mind over matter
cause we know are chances aren't bad

think positive always
never doubt the opponent or yourself
but never be afraid of your opponent
its not all about winning
its about how good you do
so think about the little thinngs you have to correct during the game
work on them as fast as you can.

"clap clap clap, you just clap for everything..."

it isn't just me

2010-04-09T22:01:00.004+08:00

Monday we'll be playing against Singapore Sports School
Then wednesday it'll be Raffles Girls
finally it will be NanYang on friday

it seems like a tough draw
but so what
I believe, we believe we can
cause when we believe we can achieve (isn't that what everyone says)
We've put all our hearts and mind in this
so there's no turning back or giving up
there is only persevering, pushing on, running on till the very last whistle blows

this time, this time we'll just have to do it with absolutely no regrets

Cause I believe we can, can you believe with me?

read the previous post too, cause that guy is amazingly cute and hot, though he would love to grow a little taller.

it isn't just me

2010-04-09T20:57:00.003+08:00

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY JONGHYUN!

can believe I forgot it yesterday, I think running 25 (big) rounds really screws up my mind..T.T
how can I forget.

Anyway, Jonhyun the totally hilarious, hottie, with the super nice voice is finally 20!!
hope he enjoyed yesterday

Thanks for making me laugh with your mischief, and thanks for being totally handsome.

it isn't just me

2010-04-07T20:36:00.002+08:00

Does anyone else think I've been a little weird, these few days
just a little off
cause I think I've been kind of different
I don't know why,
something is just off
I feel like I've been a little over in a few aspects
and I feel bad bout more than just a few things

Is there something wrong with me?
honestly, cause I think so

it isn't just me

2010-04-04T18:49:00.003+08:00

*pound, pound, pound*
that's how my heart should be now
math test tomorrow (I have zero confidence cause I got F9, for the previous one)
OUR DECIDING MATCH

I seem to be in denial now,
what am I supposed to do about that?

on the other hand.
Nomu ah ah ah apa naega ah ah ah apa~~
(pulling invisible ties)

it isn't just me

2010-04-03T18:28:00.002+08:00

Whats somebody like you, doing in a place like this?
say, did you come alone? or did you bring all your friends.
say, whats your name, what you drinking
i think i know what you're thinking
baby whats your sign, tell me yours ill tell you mine
say, whats somebody like you doing in a place like this
-timbaland feat. Katy Perry
If We Ever Meet Again

this song is addictive, isn't it?
heather and I were singing it last week hahas
timbaland may not be shuai but he sure makes alot of addictive tracks
he kinda reminds me of a teddy bear, don't ask me why...

saw(just ran into him) heather's friend jasper yesterday(he was in the navy commercial)
he's quite cute (especially his eyes)

anyway, I was crap during training today, played GK in the beginning,
then went to GD(G-Dragon XP) totally screwed that part up,
so kene scolded a bit

anyway, tuesday is the day we make everything worth it.
are we in?
we shall decide that.

it isn't just me

still half awake

2010-04-02T10:36:00.002+08:00

spent myself in today's match, my towel was totally drenched,(and that's just disgusting)
so the match ended 51 to 23 with us wining
we needed the goal difference anyway, just in case.
the guys couldn't come and watch the match cause they were wearing slippers...
stupid right
so we met them at JP for lunch, wasted our money in the arcade before that.lols
heather took wesiang's and kyne's money (everyone was like waaa, kyne so generous)

pranked wensiang, then felt bad cause, because of that he needed to go re- queue for food
so in the end Ricia and I treated him, and went to queue for him.
sorry wen siang, it was my idea.hahas
went home when my mum called cause I thought she was gonna ask me to
but in the end she only wanted to ask me what colour of the SIGG bottle I wanted.-_-"

anyway, I got my expensive SIGG bottle, now I must take care of it,
I have no idea why I like those water bottles, I just do.

smsed in boring chinese tuition, which heng sheng is in now!?
it was harder to stay awake cause I was already very tired.

it isn't just me

postponed

2010-03-30T21:10:00.004+08:00

well it rained,rained rained at kallang today
so our match was postponed (this thursday at RVHS 11 30 a.m.)
spent our waiting-out-the-rain time with the RV high netballers
it was fun!

then went back to school.
saw muhua get tau pok-ed quite often.(we did it to heather once,cause she went so steal people's wallet for fun)
well the basketballers bullying muhua was kinda pissing us off,but whatever, its all in the name of fun,as long as no one gets hurt.

GD feat. flo-rida's version of heartbreaker is out, its pretty cool!

then here's the OST of cinderella's sister, the show looks pretty interesting. plus taecyeon is in it!!

note to Frida, you lee min ho has a new drama coming out, personal taste, 2AM's seulong is in it too.

well, I'm kinda waiting to watch hellobaby episode 10, don't feeling watching god of study for now,

off to watch THE BLINSIDE , its a pretty nice movie, well of course, it got like oscars and what not.

p.s. Mr Bok was from River Valley Primary School too!He played basketball there, said they never lost for 3 years straight when he was there.
RVPS basketball was still not bad during my brother's time, I think he has a 1st place in zonals throphy or two somewhere hear.
now the basketball is well, I don't really hear anything.
(lols he way like you are also from river valley primary, then puching our arms lols)
hahas he's like 1000++ times more familiar with the old campus
since he went there for 6 years and yz,heather and I for only about a year and a half.
Still, I've always preferred the old campus, there's just something about it.

it isn't just me

2010-03-29T21:17:00.003+08:00

Nanhua vs. sengkang

this is another fate deciding match
posted a post on the batch blog,
go to it for motivation or so
it'll apply no matter when you see it.

today chatted with dumber,proGA and Monster(monster on the keypad uses the number 666-the number of the beast,hahas) bout our childhood
realised each of our were more retarded than the other.
for most violent would be yz's and mine
cause both our brothers were crazy(maybe they still are,who knows)
from her fighting with stones to my brother and I wrestling(it was pretty violent, hahas we ended up with wounds and what not)
oh and our brothers were pretty sadistic, actually I am too.
throw cats into the air lols..not me
teddy bear massaccre stories....hahas my childhood.(there are comics to come with it)

ber's bro jus threw her off the bed lols(literally)

hide the cat game!

we are just crazy aren't we

it isn't just me

L-O-L-L-I-P-O-P

2010-03-28T15:50:00.005+08:00

Kinda late to post bout lollipop 2 but whatevs the phone is damn cute
and BIG BANG IS AWESOME...
waiting for their comeback.

poor squished TOP and seungri..lols they are just a group of dorks

Lollipop 2 cf, the "making" is damn cute right

incredulous loss 3

2010-03-24T21:02:00.003+08:00

we lost today
we screwed up
I screwed up
we shouldn't have, but we did
and so all the scoldings we got, and the punishments,
we deserved them

but at least we can always cheer each other up
running like idoits no matter how tired we feel, and goofing off together can always make us happy.
WHATS THE POINT OF GOING HOME SAD
it doesn't change the past.
everything will go buy, so just keep looking forward.
When we go home happy, we can do things better, with more confidence
it doesn't matter if no one understands
as long as we know ourselves.

when everyone feels better, thats a good thing
no matter what crazy crap we do to laugh
well as long as no one commits illegal stuff...

well everyone was at fault
but I screwed the game like one....(I can't think of words to explain how crap it was)
coach didn't even wanna talk to me,
just stared at me then turned away
so I know I was screwed up to the maximum
if Mr Bok was there I could just go run to lamp post 6 then hang myself there, cause on top of being crap I would be scolded

anyway, still congrats the Greenview for winning their match today
go ahead a win the next one, so dun need so stress for sports school.
jiayous, Greenview

NANHUANETBALL JJANG!
it isn't just me

2010-03-20T17:27:00.003+08:00

I guess its just me fighting for myself now....
but I feel like giving up, just like they've given up on me
but I know I shouldn't cause I'll be killing myself
this somehow feels familiar,
in all the worst ways

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2010-03-18T22:05:00.003+08:00

so I'm back
back to reality
back to face my demons
luckily I'm back with my angels too

well since they did ultra PT today, I'm guessing I will be excecuted on saturday.
so I will go running tomorrow, and I will go complete my projects
and do some math even though I CMI at that.
Taiwan was OK, I guess, kept thinking bout how I'll screwed up in netball everytime I closed my eyes.
well the crazy exchanges student from brazil was damn funny, talk more bout it later.
missed yz like, the most cause always been on school trips with her,
crazy dumber I'm Back!

it isn't just me

2010-03-10T19:41:00.002+08:00

we lost and I'm still dissapointed
I know a large part of the blame goes to me (even though its not only me)
me and my laziness
me and my screwed up brain.

took the mrt to bukit batok today to hitch a ride in Ber's car
squeezed with marvin, yz and dexter in the middle.
dexter went to sch so squeezed with yz in one seat and marvin had alot of space.
We arrived very late due to the traffic jam
anyways we were dismissed like an hour later cause it was still raining
so in the end today's road run was a disaster
at least the class still ate the oniguri

went to watch alice in wonder land with 13 other people!
It was damn cold in the cinema
then muhua had no jacket or anything so he asked me for one side
so shared jacket with him for a while.
then couldn't take it so i wore my jacket and used my new class tee as a blanket
then when the lights came on dunno who laughed cause I had like a lot of differnt things wrapped around me.

went to mcdonalds ant heeren to talk.
prank called a few people, courtesy of muhua and marvin
laughed alot,
the ideas I randomly gave out were actually not bad.

then I went home by myself to pack
as soon as I think of the taiwan trip
my mood goes down straight away
feels like I'm being forced in a corner
I don't want to have anything to do with this trip

maybe a small part of me wants to run away,away from right now, this is the part I will be disgraced by.

it isn't just me

是我的问题

2010-03-10T00:05:00.003+08:00

cause a million 2nds don't amount to a 1st
cause even though I may not deserve the champion that doesn't mean my team doesn't
I shouldn't have let the rope slip even just a little bit
cause to higher I hung onto the faster we could climb up
I should have grabbed this chance like it should have been taken
with pride, confidence and good play.
and not let it slip through like sand
球是在我的手上丢失了

even though I may not have another chance,
all of you have
and I'll be trying my best,
cause I've let all of you down again
and you deserve better from me
cause I can't keep making the same mistakes and hope for forgiveness
I'm not a little kid anymore

cause failure is the highway to success
today there were many times I wished to run but I don't know why I didn't move.
I need to find out what's wrong with me.

it isn't just me

yesterday

2010-03-07T19:16:00.002+08:00

yesterday
I woke up early
I woke up early to fall
yesterday
I fell
I fell to be scolded
yesterday
I got scolded
I got scolded upteen times
yesterday
is gone.

it is just me, isn't it?

we won't back down

2010-03-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

We're gonna burn your city
Gonna bring your system down
I'm gonna drown my pity
Turn this to a ghost town
And when you'll know there's nothing
You're gonna run like all the rest
Take your bags and turn your back
From all the friends you had left

And it's time for us to live

It's my time
This is just a declaration
Of my vows
We won't back down
It's my time
This is just your resignation
From our lives
We won't back down

We're gonna drown your ego
You're the legend no one knows
You're an honest victim now
So now I'll drown my pity
In a pool of sorrow and shame
Until the day I'll forget your name

And you gotta let me live, yeah

And it's time to forget
What makes me sick
Deep inside of me
(Deep inside of me)
And it's time to forget
What makes me sick
Deep inside of me

we won't back down | escape the fate

cause this may be my last chance
cause this is our second time
cause this is 1st chance at double wins
cause we should have learn't our lesson
we won't back down

even if we don't have a banner
even if we don't have a crowd
we have our hearts
we have our team
we have our will

and we believe

we won't back down.

2010-03-06T17:23:00.004+08:00

now it really may be the last time.
the effing taiwan trip has screwed up my whole life
so what if I can't do the history project, I don't give a shit about it

going for that trip doesn't even mean anything will friggin' improve for me
it only means my skills will deteriorate
all the more reason to put me on the bench
my mom forcing me to go one the effing trip has fucking screwed up the last of my chances at playing at the nationals
the funny thing is, I don't have the least bit interest in any of the crap we'll be doing there.

if I can't play
why do I pick myself up after I fall
what do I train for
what do I get scolded for
what do I have to look forward to

tuesday is my only chance to show myself right,
my currently bleeding self.
why the hell do I keep falling down
I swear I have some effing retarded problem with myself

I should just kill myself in taiwan, its pretty obvious bok doesn't even like me,
and he thinks I'm screwed up right, well I think I'm screwed up too.

it isn't just me

disappiontment

2010-03-05T20:07:00.004+08:00

so we got through to fight for the top spot on tuesday's finals

I played like crap today
so much for redeeming myself
I dunno how many people just wanted to slap me on the face(including myself)
why do I always do this stupid crap why can't I just keep running
why do I stop

because I'm not trying hard enough,right?
isn't it, mind over body
I have to keep pushing myself
I have to learn to keep pushing myself

if don't there goes my chance
at anything...

I don't want to go on the taiwan trip
going for the stupid trip may just mean I'll loose my chance
going on that trip may just mean playing more like crap even if I'm in
going on that trip may just mean everything important will be put off
including the damned homework.

I keep disappointing everyone
I keep disappointing myself
what the hell is my problem
can't I just do anything right

can't my mom just understand what's important to me

where's that part of ur brain
the part where there's consideration and humbleness

I hope it isn't just me

2010-03-03T21:17:00.003+08:00

gosh, I need to seriously practice my math,
how can I possibly get 25/40, its math for pete's sake
if my parents know, I'm as good as dead
and 18/30 for geog, its freaking dissapionting!!!
19/30 for english is crap, all my careless tense errors, I can just slap myself now!
Hope I don't have this type of stupid mistakes for literature, its the only subject left I do ok in...

felt guilty for a lousy training today.
but went to MOS with YZ,Ber,Frida,Amanda and ricia.
talk about some crap
as usual YZ was the same idiot
that did retarded things, that made us all laugh like crazy
we started throwing ice at each other...
sorry to the person who had to clean it up .... :(

We'll be facing MGS on fri
I hope I can withstand for longer
my stamina is so......*sigh*
cheer us on,peeps, we'll be fighting our hearts out....right...?

p.s.
congrats to the nan hua "B" division softballers for getting 1st!!

it isn't just me

butterflies

2010-03-01T22:24:00.003+08:00

this year seems to have a lot of first.
first time I hyperventilated
and the first time I got butterflies in my stomach
and other things too...

someone let me do well in my math, I know only I can do that,
but I wish someone was hoping for me
cause I also wish many more people will be cheering on us "c" division girls for tomorrow's match.
I HOPE I CAN DO WELL
I HOPE I DON'T DISAPPOINT MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE.
we have to win as a team, no casualties, no one left out.

I don't want to go to taiwan, I'm being forced too.
does anyone think going there for a week will help me improve my chinese standard at all
I think not.
I'd rather go for holiday training
cause the NATIONALS will be right after that.

if I don't do well, I'm not on the court, that was put out clearly to me wasn't
if I miss holiday training won't I deprove....
I don't want to be standing at the sidelines feeling helpless
I HATE THAT FEELING
I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO DO ANYTHING
I hate not being able to chose.

I can't lose my confidence now,but because of the taiwan trip I think its disappearing...

it isn't just me

hyperventillation

2010-02-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

training was at kallang today.
mr bok was there
I ate breakfast, but after awhile my stomach felt Damn painful
like it was totally empty and eating itself.
Then while we were doing friendly with greenview it was damn painful
after that we still had to do half-court practice, then I was kinda breathless towards the end
then mr bok said, ok done, "go drink water"
then he called yz,hueyyan and I to do some defending practice, in preperation for the BP match.
(then he hadn't had our water yet)
so did some marking and area, plus intecepting thing.
I almost couldn't take it.
then when he said it was over,
I totally couldn't breathe properly,
and started to hyperventilate...
this is another thing my parents shouldn't know, otherwise, "GG"

their gonna fight like there's no tomorrow
so we'll have to fight like its our last hour
they'll be desperate
so we'll be dire

I'll play till something like today's happening happened if I have too
I can't let go
not now

he's not boring to me...
it isn't just me

one down, more to go

2010-02-26T18:51:00.005+08:00

yay we won the 2nd round matches, so far.
and the seniors had an epic match today
the Nan yang one, at first they were losing, but then they totally choing-ed during the last quater!!
it was damn cool.
and everyone was really tense the whole match!

happy birthday to esther, our awesome captain. XP

now our next match is against BP, we must do our best
esp me, the one who keeps getting accused of slacking...

NHNB jiayyous!!! aim for the top, and play like there's no tomorrow!

for a title not yet won
and a reign not yet taken
we shall fight

he is funny
it isn't just me

screw up

2010-02-20T22:41:00.002+08:00

training at kallang today,
after having breakfast (where only I ate) at macs with yz.

I'm still not good enough
I'm still not improving
Why the hell is that so.
Maybe I'm not trying hard enough
I have to try harder
It can't be that everyone is improving except me.
I have to improve too,
or I'm out.(that was made very clear to me)
why the hell can't I play any friggin' position well

I getting pissed off and tired with myself....
But I can't stop trying...
why can't I throw the damned ball further...

why can't I stop being sick
it's been long enough....

after my screwed performance during training
went to luch at MOS, I drank hot tea, yes I'm being good (and have been good the whole flu, why aren't I getting better!!????)
no fries.

went to vivo with yz and Ricia.
chatted, walked around then went home
couldn't bring myself to go to the guitar lesson
cause its always so cold in there and my headache's back
along with the runny nose and cough,which hasn't left.

2010-02-15T22:12:00.003+08:00

cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
all the thoughts in my head
instead of going under
-sum 41

cause I really have something to say that I shouldn't.
I know at least 2 other people wanna say the same things.
I don't think we should, no right now, at least
But, I really wanna shout it, right out, no questions asked, no explanations....

On a less mysterious note.
Spent yesterday(CNY and Valentine's Day) at my grandma's house.
Waiting for relatives to come by, waiting to collect red packets. (not many this year though..T.T)
went to my cousin's room cause we were bored, and we ended up passing our time by watching
Texas chainsaw massacre
yes we really did, p-lea-se, its not scary, its just some idiot running around with a chainsaw killing people.
my cousins,bro and I were all like "why doesn't he fall at all when running around the forest?
then he'll cut himself...LOLs"
and the physco really did fall and cut himself, mildly...hahas.
(I sound like a sadist now, maybe I am a little weird)

then went for a walk with gilliane around the area, chatted and took pictures,
after that ran into bro and yik seng...
went back after an hour or so out.
ate dinner.
actually we wanted to watch surrogates but between to com to ipod syncing
something was wrong,
so went home

and watched UP!
alone,
still its a nice movie, and touching even though its animation
you can somehow feel what the characters feel.
and that's part of a good movie isn't it?

so my new year somehow involved 3 movies and not much candy and cookies as I'm still sick...
man I can't even eat the valentines day candy
or the egg rolls
or the pineapple tarts
or ICE CREAM!!!

heal me!!

it isn't just me

2010-02-12T21:20:00.002+08:00

this is gonna be short cause I'm sick.
Its probably the flu.
now other than a cough-abused throat I have a runny nose...T.T
its chinese new year, and I'm like this.
I don't even feel like going to the reunion dinner tomorrow night.
I feel like a bundle of germs.

met up with pri sch friends today,
belle is still equally mad, only more weight concious.
chatted and caught up.
had to go home early cause H was mad at me for not handing in the taiwan trip form
NO one handed in in the 1st place....
so I didn't get scolded and just went to sleep after I bathed.
I still feel damn tired...

yesterday I didn't go to school
went to see the doctor instead, ALONE...
waited for more than an hour, wearing a stupid mask...

anyway happy chinese new year and VALENTINES DAY,
got chocolates and sweets from my peeps.
zzz, of course no guy gave me, I'm very guai ok...
made some cards while I was sick ytd gave them out, and thats that.

2010-02-08T21:33:00.004+08:00

1st things 1st,
I'm never going to drink so much milk and eat milk related products in one day ever again.
I still feel like crap now.

the best is once I walked into the house and saw my dad's face
I knew I would surely be scolded
and I was.
no one is ever going to make me quit netball, get it!
If I quit its going to be because of me, not because of what anyone else thinks.
(get it drilled into your head)

I'm no one's punching bag except my own.
Don't get all pissed off at me and the little things I do cause you just
can't show him that your pissed of with the "BIG " things he does.

tomorrow is the nan yang match
and I'm nervous
and I regret that we all weren't serious during today's training
and I regret joining in with the joking about
and I wish I can play as well as I hope
and I hope we all take it seriously
AND I HOPE THE MOST THAT WE DO WELL(very well, in fact.)

what cocky pillar, its pissing me off(think straight ok, I'm not being a perve.)

2010-02-07T10:57:00.003+08:00

homework homework homework
that's all there is today.
so I have to get to that after this.

now we are advised to only have 2 things in life
school and netball

does that mean no food and water...lols.

well we can try....
school.netball.school.netball

well I'll just be leaving my reformatted com here, as it downloads all my lost programs.
windows 7 *ahem* is working pretty well so far.

NANYANG MATCH ON TUES.
NHNB JJANG
we can do it

I can't be lazy or benchwarmer it is
I can't be lazy or no B div for me

it isn't just me

2010-02-02T21:13:00.005+08:00

For today's match I was damn screwed up.
I was so damn pissed with myself I cried, so you can imagine how screwed up I was to be pissed enough to cry.

plus that teacher in charge , does he have no sportsmanship at all!?
I think so.
what coach (isn't one supposed to be a role model) says "nice pass" when the opposing team throws a wrong pass.
what coach says "FF....."(obviously trying hard to stop himself) when the opposing team intercepts the ball
what coach says "the GA can't shoot" about the opposing team's Goal Attack [NICE ONE HEATHER SHOT IT IN TO PROVE HIM WRONG]
what coach shouts at his students to "get the freaking ball back!"
What coach (who is in charge) doesn't know the rules properly and chooses to argue with the umpire.(urm excuse me but the line IS part of the court, xiao di!)
What coach says "everything they can do then we can't" (obviously looking for excuses, all the while sounding like a four year old kid)
What coach stares at the opposing team's teamates.

honestly I have never thought I would meet someone like that what more a teacher.

mind you this is someone who is supposed to be your role model,and looks middle age.

now we have more problems don't we.
your just..... .but you won't ..........

all the test,all the homework someone help me for now, before I fall to the point of no return.

DAMN DAMN DAMN

JOSEPH U PISS ME OFF

it isn't just me

2010-01-26T19:26:00.003+08:00

kinda pissed off today, cause i honestly played like crap.
If I continue to play like this, I can just be benched 24/7.
I don't like being a benchwarmer.

I have to build arm(for throwing properly!!!),back(so I don't have anymore of these crappy problems) and stomach(just cause I want it) muscles

got cheered up my dumber plain retardedness although she was pissed off too.
we just have fun.\
ate at new york new york, the waiter voice suddenly "zhao xia" it was hilarious.
went to marina with clara and dumber, bought my sports bra.
green,never seen this design before.

couldn't join them for dinner. I bet their either shopping or eating now.
sorry peeps.

wrapped marvin present until my fingers were all black, stupid cheapskate. better get me a gift during my birthday, and don't take like 5 months to pay me back or sth like that.

it isn't just me

2010-01-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

so bored.
just heard 2AM's new song. its damn nice.
other come backs I'm waitin for:
Big Bang!!
Daesung(solo debut)
TOP(solo debut)
2PM!
2NE1 cause their the no.1 girl group!!!(to me)

ahhhs I hope avenged sevenfold still have more albums even though the rev is gone.
such a waste
avenged sevenfold songs are awesome, hope they stay awesome.
it isn't just me

bang!

2010-01-22T19:13:00.002+08:00

and so we won.
but it was easy.
the match was kinda funny, but I still played like crap
I have to improve lots by the time we meet BB(no not big bang, bukit batok sec) or NYGS(esp)
jia yyous guys....all the way to finals(nationals) JJIANG!!!!

anw today yz was full force dumber after the match at JP.
lols we kept stealing er curly fries, it was hilarious, everytime she turn to another side the two on the other side would steal her fries. LOLs
anyways she was retarded on the mrt too, she kept asking me to smell her beg.
why would I do that?

off to nap, will do weights and back exercise later.
I have to do these everyday from now on or at least try to...
(naps, not so much)

it isn't just me

2010-01-21T17:50:00.002+08:00

we gotta win tomorrow we have to win all the way.
no matter what!!!
we'll don't do it to prove to those biased people
we'll prove it too ourselves.

if we can go all they way
maybe we'll get to go overseas to have fun.
isn't it brilliant, if we could all go together??

it isn't just me

2010-01-20T21:43:00.003+08:00

urgh. I thought she was different, but turns out she's just like the rest of them.

no we are all irreplacable, we are all different.
i think it would be better to join me n bernice together, to get an awesome defender.
I think I suck now.
so don't bench them.

there are far worse things other's did.
why is it always us, why!?

this is so...
it's the same where ever I go...

thank gawd i have these awesome people who can make me laugh seconds later.

new post on the clique blog, its for the whole team.
it isn't just me

2010-01-18T22:41:00.001+08:00

this is cool a flute made of ur hands....

plus taec really is a teeth pianist (6:24)
n the throat thing, for whatever reason, I tried it and it hurts....lols now I feel very stupid...

it isn't just me

2010-01-17T17:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTDAY FRIDA.

AND JANA

checked facebook, alot of people I know are born today(6)...and 5 are the same age!!
cool isn't it

it isn't just me

2010-01-16T22:29:00.002+08:00

today, I finally went for abacus.(well it was a laugh as always, this time I provided it)
today, I tried a guitar solo
today,I spent an hour picking out materials for Frida's birthday card
today,I met dumber and the duck in taka
today, we bought presents and surprises
today,dumber thing something uniquely dumber(getting herself caught between semi-automatic doors)
today,I went home happy
today, my fingers are covered with super glue and feel numb.
it isn't just me

2010-01-14T19:02:00.003+08:00

school dismissed @ 10:30 am
thanks to our ex-nanhuarians who scored those awesome o-level results.

went watch vamp's asst. at shaw.
its quite funny, no its not scary, at least not for me
cause the rest kept saying they were scared....

after that
frida n Joey left us......
then we went to hmv to look fr clara's B'day present
(2pm's album♥♥)
but it was out of stock...T.T but that shows their popular rite...
then went to starbucks, lattes are nice, esp when u get them free.lols
then yz and I went to buy the cake, we just left saying "dun worry we'll be back"
I was supposed to pay fr the cake but I left my wallet in starbucks, and yz left her phone there.
so yz paid 1st and I paid her back later, now the rest of them owe me $.
except for clara.

oh ya speaking of 2pm.
okcat-nization of kpop artists, so retarded...
taec's okcats are hilarious, childlike standard drawings...

2pm's cheography is always cool...the pyramid move...♥

it isn't just me

love this random rainy day

2010-01-13T18:58:00.005+08:00

I'm happy!
First of all thanks to the guy on the bus that stopped beside ours.
he was staring out the window, then we said "wave to him" and frida♡♡ did!
the guys reaction was very funny :
1st he was kinda shocked, and open his eyes very wide
then when we started laughing he laughed too!!!
hahas
And he dropped at the same stop as us, so we saw him again, and kept laughing.
he looked not bad you know.

then we ate cookies/waffles and drank bubble tea.
after Frida and Ber left, we started to take random pictures.
jasmine and Yz have the most unglam hilarious poses ♡♡

2PM & Big Bang appeared in the chinese paper today!!
hahas
Frida,yz and ricia agree that DBSK's yunho is hot, me and clara thought tt a while ago.lols.
yay Frida thinks 2pm is hot...HI FIVE FRIDA♡.(u can hi five with Clara too,hahas, when is ur mom gonna let u use the com?)
I will keep ice-ing my back, its not even a proper word.

it isn't just me

2010-01-12T19:47:00.002+08:00

Basically everything in school was dull today cause I'm depressed due to my back.
except those 3 crazy people drawing on my table
and writing that I like someone, which is totally untrue, I don't even talk to him....

anyway went to sake after so-called-training
(where I can't do a single crap properly, so I was in a damn bad mood, I hope my back heals fast.
I damn pissed cause I have to be the friggn' unlucky one who has to get this type of screwed problem from the most common action. Fjnzfnusjajcafak!!)

anyway we got drenched on the way there...
then the computer to do the orders at our table was malfunctioning every few minutes.
overall the day was total crap rite...

but cause of the retarded people I ate with
I left I happy person.
retarded yz n her dumbness plus more retarded way of talking.
TWENTY-FRAF (yup that's what she said yesterday. supposed to be 25)
n Jasmine, who played with food again....

haiz...I love all of you...

it isn't just me

2010-01-10T21:10:00.003+08:00

1st of all
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CLARA
okok ^ ^"

went for brunch today.
nothing much other than that.
I'm now alone at home, I watch antique bakery...
way disturbing, but kinda funny.

yesterday's after CCA extravaganza was hilarious.
clara,ricia n clara going up and down the escalator...to see the guy.
he was looking at them, then suddenly he turn n look at me..(wth!?).
LOLs when they went to go hide behind the pillar tt guy and his friends saw!(how retarded they must have thought they were)
me and ricia just went to look at shoes.

then we started this kind of mission thing.
lols.
Clara went to ask the policeman, on patrol in the mrt, where the toilet was!
hahas,he answered!
they followed me all the way to plaza, I paid fees, but didn't go for lesson...lols
for a more detailed recount of the day, view dumber's blog.

I loving clara's new blog banner, one shots of 2pm members performing "hate you".

it isn't just me

2010-01-08T21:22:00.003+08:00

I'm doubting that my back will heal by next week
I'm afraid we won't get into the nationals
I'm doubting the fact that everyone wants nationals top 4 as much as they say
I'm afraid I will mislead myself
I'm doubting I can improve as much as I plan to
I'm afraid I let down everyone
I'm doubting I can make it through this year.

maybe I just don't deserve to get back on court....
life is unfair isn't it.

I can't say this
I must never say never.
(now I'm listening the fray)
the songs suits now.
someone tell me everything will be fine
and someday I'll give you the extra push too...

I MUST GET BETTER.
we must prove to them that we can do it,
we work as hard as anyone else,
now its time for them to recognize our efforts
they will not push us aside just cause their biased!

it isn't just me

2010-01-07T21:24:00.002+08:00

change me
change me quick
save me
save me faster
cause when that chances comes
I can't help but go with it

It flashes past
faster than me
faster than you
but I grab
I grab
without knowing
without caring
the consequences of which shall unfold
until the bubble brusts
until the dream subsides
then I realise it was all for nothing.

why do I always do the wrong things.

it isn't just me

2010-01-06T18:49:00.003+08:00

can't go for training again, of course it has to be my back that isn't ok.
I hate it, I can't do anything, I feel useless...
damn damn damn....
let my back be OK by friday, please pleas please....
I wanna go back for training!

the new CEP teacher is funny, or blur,to say it right.
when some guy came to borrow the remote for the air-con, we were all like "NO!" for fun.
then he joined in! he said "NO!" too.
After the guy left, he asked "他要什么?"
lols he didn't even know what was goin on!.

minhan wrote "I'm retarded
awesome minhan"on my hand.
but doesn't that mean minhan is retarded....

GAHHHH.....I really wanna go for training!!!though without the sun!

urghs.I keep almos falling asleep in class, I actually almost slept through the whole of yesterday.
gimme back my 10hrs of sleep a day from the holidays please.

Okcat <3
it isn't just me

gah...the irony.

2010-01-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

I love wild bunny.
it makes me feel happy no matter what!
leadja losing his sanity=hilarious.
taec has a really good temper though.

found out that DJ will be our co-form, damn it, she was the only teacher the whole class wanted gone that much...argh...the irony of it all.
yet another year we suffer.
I will give her a welcome back gift, by not handing in holiday homework.
I gift that shows my feelings doesn't it.
I despise end of year homework.

back to more wild bunny to put a smile on my face.(re-watching)
and to forget that there is actually triple chinese periods tomorrow.
gah...the horror......
it isn't just me

2010-01-03T17:14:00.005+08:00

thanks to WILD BUNNY. I have shunned my sour sour mood.
now an actual post.
I'm still not looking forward to tomorrow.
argh....how come V can sleep like 24/7 and then keep playing his guitar and using the com
without even the slightest hint of work.
Damn....
I have not actually completed any homework from any subject.
haiz....

and my back.damn my back
when is it gonna get better.
plus there's training tomorrow...
oh just take me away, somewhere....
How can I be thinking of nationals top 4, when I can't even go through one session of training now?

I should stop thinking, it really puts me in a bad mood.
now I have to watch more WILD BUNNY while packing my back for tomorrow.
please let all my teachers be sane, and likable....please.

ωιlɗ ɓטɳɳy
it isn't just me

2010-01-03T13:09:00.002+08:00

this is so damn irritating, right now I have no mood to actually return to that stupid building.
I can't even train, cause of this stupid back of mine.
can't it heal faster....I hate this!
because of this stupid thing, I think I'll be diagnosed with clinical depression.
I don't find anything funny now....

it isn't just me

bash it!screw it!

2010-01-02T19:13:00.004+08:00

oh bash it!!
I don't wanna do any homework, I don't care what the teachers will think.
don't they already hate netballers, so bash it!

I'm gonna eat my pasta and go to sleep.
I'm gonna wake up at 11 and not do anything.

who's idea was it to give out december holiday homework.
I can deal with june or any other holiday homework,but never end of year holiday homework.
it isn't even a holiday anymore, with homework and training.
damnit, I don't wanna go back to the class room.
can we at least start after all the 12 days of christmas end!!!!
just send we to the court.
heal my back before that.
I just see the juniors.
change my chinese and Bio teachers!!!!

Since I alreayd know I have to go back.
I wanna keep these subject teachers.
physics.
lit
history
and our form teacher.

the rest are just ok, except the above,above.

my mood is screwed up right now, cause of the stupid person who gets angry at everything.
alway's ruins the mood of any happy occasion with that stupid temper.

now I really want ωilɗ ɓטɳɳy episode 8 or Fαmily σטting ep 76 to cheer me up.
it isn't just me

va va voom...

2010-01-02T00:53:00.001+08:00

blog re-vvammped...
like it.
I'm still working out some kinks.
Going to bed before I go any further.
hope everyone sleeps well
hope not all of you finished your homework.

it isn't just me

1st

2010-01-01T21:32:00.002+08:00

well my 1st post of 2010.
the 1st day of the year started off crappy.
Dad was pissed of again, of course its with V, but V doesn't even know.
WTH is dad's porb, just tell it too him straight to his face, stop bitching bout it to me, what do you expect me to do!

then the rest of the day he was in a bad mood, that's why I don't stay around him, that's why I'm always upstairs.

haiz....I'm gonna watch star golden bell now, to make myself laugh.
as they say laughter is the best medicine, I hope it helps with my screwed up back too.

so many things I wanna accomplish this year.
aim high, even though you may not reach it, but at least it will be better than aiming low and not trying.

I'm thinking of a new skin....
I like carnation's but I won't use the same one as people I know....probably.

it isn't just me

2009: gone with the wind.

2009-12-31T23:34:00.003+08:00

oh my last post of the year better get it done quick, not much time left.
HAPPY NEW YEAR peeps.

there are like 3 gayo daejuns these 3 days, I still think the best was SBS's
anw. hope we can survive the new year without a single scratch on us.
good luck to all, and lend some to me too.

and I'm happy,happy,happy that FO won't end, although there maybe some changes to the show.
I think my bro's frens are staying over, damn someone has to sleep in my room.
he could have told me earlier.
I have to spend my 1st day of 2010 with someone I dunno....

ohs n RIP The Rev, you were an awesome drummer.
why'd you leave A7X

oh wells, life's just like this isn't it.
cya guys...

its lemons,signing off for the last time this year.

it isn't just me

post #270.

2009-12-30T17:54:00.010+08:00

trained in tkss today.
now my back is kinda screwed up.(I don't know wad happened)
it 'cracked' ytd night, but there was no pain, until halfway through training.
anw.went to vivo to eat luch, ended up in pizza hut in habourfront.(service sucked)
and on the way back to the vivo bus stop(we chose to walk outside)I dared yz and frida to run through the water feature outside vivo, AND THEY DID.
yz was damn stupid, frida went between the 2 water spouts with a bigger gap and ended up with only her feet wet.
yz went between 2 will a really narrow gap, and kinda made a halfway-turn so her bag was sprayed on by one of the spouts and she was vair vair wet.
that's why she's dumber.

back home today, awesome someone has uploaded sbs gayo daejun.yays!
ytd I just watched a bit.
its awesome!!!
and the Y.A.B parody by 2pm is damn funny.
GD and taeyang had awesome performances!(♡♡Big Bang)
but GD was tearing during his heartbreaker perf.(why? no one noes yet. n I dun lyk his "bowl" hairstyle now)
and 2pm's intro to heartbeat with the zombie theme was damn cool.and the special ending to heartbeat was epic(♡2pm)
everyone else was great, plus they had a tribute to "the king of pop"
and boy grps doing girl grps' songs and vice versa.
go to : here to watch most of gayo daejun before YT deletes it....maybe.

2pm's intro.

taeyang's perf.: wedding dress

extras.

You Are beautiful music drama parody eng sub

it isn't just me

2009-12-29T21:16:00.004+08:00

went to jurong library to holiday homework today.
Lim Jing arrived a little earlier than me, we tried to start out while waiting for the rest.(I failed)
Med came, then dumber who kept asking whether to bring this or that, when she was already late.
The last one was Clara, it was hilarious, to her expense.
She went to the right library, then the wrong one, then back to the right one.
right after she arrived we went to eat.

after lunched I actually did some math!!!(Gosh I'm surprised!)
Then we started talking bout crap.
finally left the library and went to popular, bought teenage mag.(I don't really know why now.)
then walked to IMM.
ran away from clara with yz.(it was damn funny)
aparrently she didn't even notice, but we were laughing like crazy.
oh well, now the day is ending boringly..

I wanna watch SBS Gayo DaeJun, its being aired now. too bad S'pore doesn't have that channel...

oh just something extra. 2pm's taecyeon doodled all over nichkhun's language book.
how childish is he!

it isn't just me

2009-12-27T17:09:00.011+08:00

1st of all:
Happy 21st Birthday to Ok Taecyeon aka Okcat aka Okdaeri aka [alot of other things]
he's too funny he deserves a birthday wish.
he is 185cm tall.but so childish ahahas esp on wild bunny and Idol army. hilarious.
the big toothed big eared hot guy.hahas.
Bring jay back ok.both of them are like "funny comes in pairs"
nxt time instead of going to boston go to Seattle.pull him back.
he's lyk ur best friend...
anyways happy Birthday.

*z(h)oom* went for grandma's b'day lunch today at the carlton hotel.
saw sth.
ate good food
made a bet with Da Yi that whoever eats the herbal jelly w/o sugar syrup will get sth from the other person.
in the end we both did, so now I owe da yi a movie treat and she owes me popcorn and a meal.

after that I went to the library, since it was so close.
renewed "and another thing" and found "are these my basoomas I see before me"
(the last book to the comfessions of Georgia Nicolson)
I know the title sounds weird, but I love reading the series for almost only one reason.
its unbelievably funny how stupid her and every other character can be.

he painted a racing stripe down the side of his three-wheeled Reliant Robin.Even grandad overtook the clown car the other day, and wasn't even on his bike.He was walking quite briskly.Thats how pathetico the robinmobile is

from: 'are these my basoomas I see before me?'
by : Louise Rennison

LOL

oh and I actually liked today's breakfast of bread,cause mom bought caramel spread.
hahs she says its french kaya.derangedwoman
oh well I still love caramel.

it isn't just me

bam!

2009-12-26T22:29:00.005+08:00

Boxing Day
went out with Ricia, Clara, Joey, YZ, Brandon, Xavier, Muhua, Ryan.
I knew it, Marvin definitely couldn't come, and Frida got grounded, or somewhat.
Yz was late, so we went to buy tickets and ate lunch 1st.
(wait while I brush my teeth and pretend to sleep, I don't want to open the door for my parents tonight.)
ok.I'm done with that.

After we let the guys go into the cinema, we waited for the already late yz to arrive so we could enter the theater together. [aren't we a good bunch, I should not "zi kua"]
watch planet 51, it was enjoyable, funny as you would expect.
muhua spilled tidibits on my jeans and the floor when he passed it back, I think it went on Clara too. =_="

after the movie we had our gift exchange thing.
I drew 'brandon"
the girls spent a very long time choosing presents.(see guys, how much effort did we put in, ho can you just buy everything in like less than a half hour??!!)
We walked alot.
I'm going back to the toy shop in wheelock!!(because they have doremon stuff and the clawed bear chracter.wad's its' name?.. ah.. gloomy bear. I like it, even though it may seem sadistic)
I bought one the figurines for Bong. (it's ex ok, for tt size. but I want the soft toy, its lyk 35bucks)
then we met after taking the longest time helping ricia look for a gift for muhua.
then we quarreled with the guys on where to eat(Ryan already went home).
Ended up at dome, where we prank-ed ryan, then stuffed rubbish in his gift bag.
(I know its kinda mean, but its just a joke, and everyone laughed.)
we had a hard time persuading the guys to actually order something.
They were quite _____ (can't find the right words) in DOME.
oh well. went home after all the retarded drama in DOME.

now I'm having a joint convo with dumber and clara.
and I'm currently having fun with the hilrious antics of 2pm.

lemons, signing off

it isn't just me

festive seasons

2009-12-25T21:43:00.003+08:00

ahh.glorious christmas time.
though I pissed my dad off for not going the family for it, his temper kind off...its just wasn't big.
Had FUN at Clara's church outing at east coast park
(DAMN I still can't cycle....T.T)

And after that yz & Clara came over.
Dad cooked pasta for everyone.(the magic of the festive season, he totally wasn't angry)
thank you magic festive season.
WE watch WILD BUNNY! & obviously LMAO-ed.
watched from the starting of the Dirty-eyed girls thing.
JOkwon is funny as *can't find words*....heck all of them are, [taecyeon!♥LOLs]
we watched it all the way to ep7.haiz I want Jay to come back so they can finally air episode 8.
the preview is already so funny!
love days like this.

OH and I had the works for christmas eve dinner.
smoked salmon
lobster bisque
kurobuta pork
dessert = tiramisu, fruit cake, some other dessert auntie Susie bought from center ps.
this was all at home.lols

christmas shopping :D[I'm going back in time]
after I bought my stuff. went to Challenger to buy V's zen-xfi 2 [I wanted that]
tsk v didn't thank me for helping persuade the folks to get him the 16GB one.
tsk didn't reply my christmas wish sms today either...
anyways in challenger,guess wad they were playing on the com.
1st was 2pm's again & again perf
then it was I hate you perf. in a row.LOLs

these are my christmas presents.

Lemons,signing off on a happy note.

it isn't just me

2009-12-23T15:00:00.003+08:00

Hows about a little christmas cheer up.
It made my day today. which sucked quite a bit.
hahas "one day perverts" LMAOs

WILD BUNNY XDD

it isn't just me

Joyeux Noël

2009-12-21T20:51:00.007+08:00

its just 4 days to a merry Christmas.

メリークリスマス|Joyeux Noël|즐거운 성탄|Feliz Navidad|圣诞快乐|frohe Weihnachten

for all those of us who got homework this holidays.(I know it sucks.)
Enjoy the festive season guys.(Cause I will with my headphones.)

anyways wishes from "big bang" and "2pm"
I still can't believe marv lyks snsd.

anyways since the zonal competitions are coming up for all the sport CCAs I wrote sth on the clique blog for our "c" div-ers.
click ♥here to read it

hope to see my peeps on the 26 Dec (those of you who R coming.)
xinyi...please come. [our gao zai, try harder for our zonals]

special wishes to:
YuZhen(krispy\dumber)
Ricia( the monkey & fat-fingers LOLs)
Clara (OKOK. *winks*)
Joey(prince. hahas)
Jasmine(♡buttons)
Bernice(bernie'lols I'll stop)
Frida(the "superstar" or so she says)
Xinyi(gao zai...)
All nan hua netballers
My class {awesome 110. see you in 210 next year}
and so many more of you...

lols. I'm not wishing the guys...
{Z[h]oom} I still wish you guys a merry christmas. do I have to write it down.

edited : 6:27 pm 22/12/09

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My Ear Candy

2009-12-20T22:12:00.005+08:00

I got my skullcandy headphones.yay!
I bought the recruit model.
and the 1st song I heard on them was
my ear candy by baek ji young feat.taecyeon (pretty appropriate hahs)

At 1st I wanted to buy one of the lowrider designs (but my head's kinda small so it won't look that nice.)
so my head is small compared to my body isn't it.[small-face-me],and my teeth are big compared to my face.{so dun worry taec. hahas ur not alone.[american rat XDD]}
my dream ear candy would be DR DRE headphones custom made of course. but their like 700 bucks.

anyways I'm happy with what I have NOW.
CaN't WaIt TiLl X'mAs
I can finally officially use them.

it isn't just me

2009-12-18T17:48:00.003+08:00

Well, today I'm left to find my own meals and being left alone in the house.
(the reason for this is cause we're changing maids)

so what did I have for lunch : Mcdelivery.

so what am I gonna have for dinner?

now I've really been in the don't-get-out-of-the-house-and-move mood.
I really don't feel like going to training tomorrow.

Gawd...I really don't wanna go to school.

finally. the whole house to myself..Shocking...i srsly nd to practice on my guitar. but why am I so lazy...

it isn't just me

2009-12-14T18:23:00.002+08:00

so my dog went with the stray. tsk tsk...
she never listens to me

anyways met up with Ricia, Frida, Jasmine and hueyyan for "self-training" today.
(we just played around and did shooting)

Then we went to subway for lunch(brunch for me since I didn't feel like eating breakfast today)
After that we had to go back to school to take balls for wednesday's training at TKSS.
I left with Ricia right after that, cause I felt bored and it started to get sunny.
(*z(h)oom*[I keep saying this randomly to myself at home now]...I think I'm already dark enough right.anyway I'll get darker during the zonals so I should avoid the sun while I can.lols)

Today I got home really early.(my brother began his day 2hrs later)
started watching stuff on youtube.
watch YG tv (2ne1 is funny.so is BB), suddenly felt like doing weights so I did some sets with the dumbbell in my room, while watching 2NE1 tv. (ended up with the com on the floor with me cause I did a few crunches too.)
I really should do the fitness thing more often, then at least my throws can reach further.
(compared to alot of people, my arm strength is like 0.)

I'm still wishing hard for my kicks and headphones.

today's wake up time: 7:15a.m.

it isn't just me

I WANNA..

2009-12-13T23:05:00.003+08:00

all I want for Christmas :

HIGH TOPS like theese(but colourful). I want the bulky ones. they match my skinnys.
I wanna steal some from BB. they have an awesome collection of them.

and skullcandy headphones!

I probably can get one of theese when I go out with da yi on sunday.

it isn't just me

2009-12-12T17:48:00.004+08:00

bought a new pencil tin to begin my dreadful year of school with.ok so here its is-partially-you'll get to see the whole thing when you see me in school.
but I dread going back there and the only reasons are incomplete homework and...
who our teachers will be.
if its the same as this year's I'll just....I just cannot take it!!!(110 peeps you know what I'm talking about-or more like who)

anyway I'm supposed to chat with clara on msn l8r, so I'll go and bathe 1st.
its about my uncle having some retarded "sidekick"
trust me my uncle is one of the most boring ppl u'll ever meet
ask his children(my cousins), they totally had nothing to do when they went to HK with their parents.
their lyk how old...and my uncle won't let them walk around for like half an hour.
and who ends up waiting for the tour guide ,instead of the other way around, when they go on tours. only my uncle and aunt, plus my forced cousins.
so do you see why him having some idiotic lackey following him around is so unlikely and stupid.
I swear that guy has no life.

I have a sudden and very strong urge to...

renovate my room!!

I want a bunk bed.don't ask me why.
I want to repaint the walls.
I want a knew bedside table
I want to throw/give away stuff so I have more space!

now this is what you call having fun on stage.~~

it isn't just me

random-ness

2009-12-10T21:39:00.004+08:00

did I tell u I watched new moon on monday? I didn't, did I.
well if you read the book the movie sucked (in my opinion and alot of other ppl's)
even when they change directors...(hopeless) whats with the ending anyway.
It leaves almost nothing to surprise.

I have a sudden craving for macaroons and canele cakes.(don't ask me why)
Oh well, I can't get them at 10 in the night, so I'll just have to live with it.

back to watching IRIS now, on episode 14.
I wanted to go back watching it after seeing a 3min cut of episode 17.
*hint* major twist, I was kind of suspecting it, but no way did I think it will happen in that way.

and now because of yz I feel like watching sky of love again.
isn't she supposed to be on a plane or sth now.

OH and I just came across this "my ear candy by baek ji young parody"
once yoo jaesuk is in it its guaranteed to be funny right!
it is hilarious.

it isn't just me

carnaval

2009-12-09T21:29:00.005+08:00

We won champs for the "eXTREMESnetball Carnival"the match against BP and SCGS was nerve-wrecking... it was like everyone was watching...
then we score ppl cheer, they score ppl cheer (all damn loudly)
when we scored I think our ex-senoir drummed on the table as ppl clapped (near the end of the match) LOLs.
we won both my 1, so close...I think we were lucky, if I was more alert I think it wouldn't have been so close. I feel like slapping myself, I dunno how many times I let the person run in, then nvr intercept the ball, I can jus bang my head against the wall.

Mr bok said we deserved it, but when I think about it, I dun think I deserved
I was damn off form, I dunno how many goddamn mistakes I made (and being sick is not an excuse)
counting how many ppl I got scoldings from, I really think I played like crap.
everyone else deserved to touch the trophy except for me...
I was damn pissed off with myself.
for now I just hope, I won't be as sick as I was yesterday tomorrow morning.

on a lighter note. clara's back XP/
and I saw this shuai international school guy on the way home today, on the bus.

sad but.

bon voyage yz aka. blur bimbo aka dumber aka krispy eng

. lols

we'll see wat hapens in 2 weeks.

it isn't just me

2009-12-05T12:07:00.002+08:00

can't go for class now since its raining. sian diao. I dun wanna eat lunch at home.
I need to get out soon. at least I have guitar lesson, but I didn't practice so damn it.

but I can totally run away tmr for yz's house warming party.
dumber who is blur-rer than blur has moved, the one who forgets her wallet and doesn't realise till someone calls her.

I want the audio technica headphones!!!!! (the ones tt can be customized)
I WANT HIGHTOPS!! [these I seriously want really badly, I want the bulky ones. but haiz, who will buy them for me.]

it isn't just me

2009-12-04T22:17:00.005+08:00

don't love (me) by F.T. island is like stuck in my head.(so I'm gonna make it my blog song w/o shuffling...if u dun feel lyk listening to it just change it...)
but the lyrics...their damn sad...[hongki cried singing this song in one of their concerts I think...]

I should go. I should go now. Because my stubbornness will turn to tears.
I should hurry so I won't see you left behind.
I'm crying. All the sadness that this departing love built up has crashed.
I can't even move a step so I just stand crying with my back on you.

Don't love. Good bye will always come. It hurts so much that you can't even breath.
I thought it'd only hurt as much as love. I thought I could forget it.
But no, it hurts thousand times more.

I'm scared.
Living with my eyes opened,
but I'll still be blind.

Don't love. Good bye will always come. It hurts so much that you can't even breath.
I thought it'd only hurt as much as love. I thought I could forget it.
But no, it hurts thousand times more.

Again and Again. No, No. I tell myself like a fool.
Don't love. It hurts so much that you feel like dying.
You cry everyday too.
I thought it would be easy, I thought I could forget once a new love comes
but no,
my love can't do that.
I can't do that.

anyways, went for training today. did some courtwork before it began to rain, and the lightning alert sounded so we were all herded to shelter.
then we were split to defenders, and shooters+feeders
and coach was alwys at the shooters+feeders side so we kinda slacked around and had fun.
plus we got our break earlier than them.lols
coach is not supposed to see this or she'll be pissed off, its the last official training before the carnival. *snickers*

then we ordered Mcs and started on some holiday H.W. I got pissed off with my history learning log. so after we ate I didn't continue. We goofed around with gregory and sec2 seniors. hahas the "tanji is very strong" joke is just too funny
best reaction award goes to yu zhen!!

kinda sian with my blog alr. the only thing i do now is update my playlist..

it isn't just me

you're....

2009-12-03T19:17:00.007+08:00

currently addicted to f.t. island songs. hongki's voice is damn nice.
after love and raining are damn nice, don't love too. I will go listen to more songs soon (:

okay so I just finished watching you're beautiful. ain't I the best, I finished the whole series in 3 days. (could have been 2 if I didn't go for training or cut my hair)

anyways its pretty nice to watch. hahas lee hongki's character, jeremy, is cute.(but the part he cries, its so sad, his chracter is damn inoccent and sweet, so when he cries its lyk...
everyone will feel damn sad for him...)
then the guy who acts as shinwoo is shuai. lols. the lead not bad...
oh I love the soundtrack. in some songs the lyrics are quite sad, but it suits the chracters state... T_T

so now I'm gonna continue on IRIS. starting on ep12 now.
at the beginning there's already a shoot-out. hmm. its has so many plot twist and turns, I guess that's what makes it so interesting.

btw,cut my hair ytd(as mentioned above), while yz cut her's too and somehow her mother magically agreed to let her highlight her hair.(but there is still the problem of her not being able to open her mouth in front of strangers, I shall not mention further cause u'll laugh at her.)

well tomorrow will be the last training before the carnival.I guess I can't go for class BBQ at the chalet on tues if I wanna sleep well. sorry guys, maybe I'll make it on monday?
I'll try.

it isn't just me

missing.in action

2009-11-30T22:56:00.004+08:00

went to school at around 1 today.
so many people didn't come for training.yz, jasmine(who didn't care to explain.hmph!), joey, carissa
then I dawn upon me that the carnival will be next week!!!

so coach was like no fitness this week, as long as we perform well during training(yyyeeess!!)
training wasn't tiring until bernice left, so me hueyyan and pricilla had to keep doing the drill over and over again cause we didn't have enough ppl for us to rest.

Anyways went to Mc with ricia and frida, bought Ice-cream(yays.my favourite food!!)and fries to share.(I should stop eating fries and other junk food. but I will never give up ice cream!)
btw. wed's training is in the morning. and we're probably going for lunch with coach (:

so now I'm in the midst of watching IRIS episode 11(yes I found it!) and I wish someone I know could be watching it as fast as me.(FYI its damn nice to watch!)

have to fix a date to shop with da(4) yi(2) soon, I think I wanna buy skull candy headphones, or the audio technica ones tt allow you to customize the colour. If da yi wun pay fr the whole thing, no worries.

I think frida will pay the extra,rite frida u still owe me my b'day prez.

haiz.clara is far far away.alot of things I wanna show her.

cobra starship's hot mess album is totally addictive. They have to awesome party songs!!!

lyrical quote:

she holds the key in her hand
reflection in the mirror's her only friend

living in the sky with diamonds
-cobra starship

it isn't just me

2009-11-26T20:21:00.002+08:00

I'm friggin' bored now.I've been bored the whole day.
so bored I actually tried clearing up my room, to no avail, cause I always give up halfway.

my crazy mom won't allow me to go out without something in exchange, and she won't even give me $$ if I go out after doing the crap. (f**king pisses me off) then my dad always side her, he can go other country for business trip, doesn't matter to me, nothing changes.

watched my gf is an agent in the afternoon. it's quite funny and nice to watch
and I watched some other funny vids like strong heart.
but once I think of this crap I feel damn pissed of.
I just wanna go to slp and dun wake up, but the deranged person wun even let me do that.
I wake up at 9:30,she say very late. I'll wake up at 11 everyday if I could.

goddamn it I want my headphones, I want my glow in the dark havianas. I wanna shop'
but go with the deranged person she'll just keep asking questions, then go buy stuff for herself.

damn pissed off now, I can't even write in proper english or anything close to that.

it isn't just me

smile

2009-11-26T02:32:00.001+08:00

just for a laugh guys.cheer urselfs up

it isn't just me

friendly.

2009-11-25T21:23:00.004+08:00

had a friendly match with canberra sec today.(clara came along to watch.think she was a bit bored when we we're doing warm up and other crap)
I played for all 4 quaters -.-'
I got pissed off. and still,I sucked, got scolded by coach again.

anyways before that met yz on the mrt then went to da bao lunch and ate in sch after we me ricia,frida and xin yi.
bernice came later. damn she got to highlight her hair.(I want red or blue streaks.)

after the match cam-whored with canberra sec c div, all the photos are on frida's cam.
went to mcs and bought mcflurry after we got back to sch.
I had to wait like 20mins for the stupid bus.damn it.

don't feel like going out right now.I should do more homework I've only did a few questions.

I should find out when mom and dad are going to hongkong so I can go out then.

and I found this retarded show.the intro bout the "BOF theme" lols

it isn't just me

2009-11-23T21:15:00.004+08:00

lols Daesung.

woke up around 9:30 today and had breakfast at 10.
An hour and a half later, I had lunch.-.-'

set off for sch and arrived around 12:40
talked.laughed.wasted time
talked to clara after her training ended and returned her umbrella.

then we were all shipped off to canberra sec at sembawang (how far is that!)
did the usual warm up.Then started on some courtwork drill.
haiz...then we did a sort of practice quarter.
I feel so lazy now...
after all the practice quarters we had to do circuit again!(the one we did as punishment)only it wasn't cause we did badly,it was for fitness-.-'

I had to do all crunches cause of the blisters on my palm, so my stomach muscle was almost cramping, and my chest hurt when it ended.
sprinting.goddamn it.I hate doing 2 sets of circuit.

oh well.I'll be watching FO now.finished gossip girl so I will watch FO ep 70.

it isn't just me

2009-11-22T01:42:00.003+08:00

ok so I literally just finished watching gossip girl season 2.
I wanna watch season 3 like now, but I have to sleep.
homework, ah yes,homework, the very thing I dread having to look at right now.
thus, I 'll be going to sleep now and I'll see if I'll [ever] be in the mood to do it tomorrow.

chuck and blair.lols. like it better than serena and nate. which totally seems impossible right now.

anyway good night/morning whichever way you want it. I'm going to bed.
it isn't just me

1,2,3,4 minus one = 3 (again)

2009-11-19T19:12:00.003+08:00

Went out with yz,clara and ber today. were supposed to buy stuff from NUM cause there was 50% off, but in the end only yz and ber bought.( I still want my glow in the dark havianas!!! but they weren't there. I guess i have to buy them for full price from tangs)

ate lunch at superdog after buying movie tickets and coffebean.
I was damn full after drinking and eating a hotdog and the chilli cheese fries.*thanks to clara for treating me to the fries*
Ber left after we walked around for a while cause she couldn't watch the movie with us.
hahas I wanna buy the doremon spone "ping-pong" thing, maybe can use it for camp next year.
I wanna buy the doremon squirt gun camera.
(i want a doremon/elmo wall calendar!!)

Anyways watched a Christmas Carol, its a classic so u shld noe the story. the movie was quite good, dramatic...
LOLs Clara got scared at the ghost of christmas future parts.
(when am I gonna find someone who'll watch a horror movie with me...PG horror movies just aren't scary. I just have to wait till I'm 16)
the little kid with his dad sitting next to clara was freaked out by all the ghost parts, thus his hands were perpetually on his ears all through the movie.
YZ got teary at the tiny tim parts.
lols nth happened to me cause I already knew the story.
Some parts of it we're quite funny, though.(go watch it to find out)

then we went to toys'r'us but ended up lookin at J-14 mag clara got.
Insulted alot of those teen idols.lols(esp miley.I just dun lyk her okay!)
lols then kept complimenting Taylor Lautner.

ok. so i'm back now after borrowing an umbrella from clara to get home *thanks again*
finally got the second season of gossip girl from YZ.
going to watch it now.
I better sleep more tonight cause there's training tmr.

and update on my wound. it still looks utterly disgusting.

it isn't just me

been reading stephen king's nightmares and dreamscapes:
That night Miss Sidley cut her throat with a bit of broken mirror-glass, and after that Buddy Jenkins began to watch the children more and more. In the end, he was hardly able to take his eyes off them.

suffer the little children by Stephen King

2009-11-17T18:51:00.002+08:00

So I've been sitting at home all day. No, I don't wanna go out cause, let me see:
both my knees are skinned and look extremely unsightly
my shoulder muscles are aching because I did all the punishments as guy push-ups(due to my knees)

I totally dreaded bathing today, cause my wounds would seriously sting.
And they did,even more so when I applied the medicine.Oh well.I just have to bare with it
today I'm kinda waddling round the house.
and tomorrow I'll have to run(during training)

the only good thing bout today is that I found out that IRIS episode 5 and 6 were uploaded *yes!!*
And so the plot thickens, its getting more interesting...
its damn nice to watch!
can't wait to watch everything!!!

it isn't just me

all scratched up...

2009-11-16T22:52:00.004+08:00

went out with mom to eat lunch (at anchor point) and buy books, before training.
so mom came into sch with me to buy books for next year, then when we walking halfway clara suddenly run up and said "OMG he's here!!!"(c.cube lors,who else:X) luckily mom didn't ask bout that or it would have been damn awkward.
anyways clara was ULTRA ULTRA happy! and quite a few books were out of stock.

training started, and the boys brigade was also using the court fr their marching thing, then dance ppl were there watching too. then while we were doing the side steps, I tripped and fell down(u see I'm actually very clumsy)...since the floor was quite rough and I "slid" on it, my knee was skinned. It looks bloody.(yes, its still looks like that now)
trust me It was more embarrassing than it was painful, cause it really wasn't that painful.
(it only stings when I bathe...)

so everyone was quite disgusted(so was I) with my wounds (didn't mention the scratch on my other knee, well its much smaller) thus I will not grace this blog with the repulsiveness of the wound.
training was like 4 1/2 hours, thought we watched the seniors play for awhile.
then I realized I had a giant blister on my palm. then skin was off it alr, but I didn't feel the least bit of pain(there really must be sth wrong with me...)
my whole family was disgusted with my wound.including my bro who really doesn't seem to care bout much things happening around here.
lucky dad wasn't here or he'll be like totally freaked out(he's kinda scared of blood see.LOLs)

it isn't just me

so right now I'm still pissed off with TOP. but I think i still like him equally with Daesung. ain't I full of shit, there is obviously sth wrong with me =_="